Our life, if not being taken away without our conscious will, we may probably get to live a relatively long and serene life, where we are being constantly elevated by material abundance and technological advancement.
The birds know their way home despite long distances; the flowers blossom at exactly when they are supposed to; and the resilience of the grasses as shown in how they grow from the cracks of the rocks. The nature never stops surprising us if we do not take it for granted, all these manifestations of nature’s intelligence are, for me, the signposts that point to the ultimate purpose of our existence.
Our current existence is nothing more than an opera carefully designed by the machines and people who are operating the machines. Logically speaking, when the great nature itself is part of our life, our life should be at its equivalent, because the definition of greatness does not in itself imply imperfection, otherwise it would not be called “great” in the first place. In layman terms, when nature is so marvelous and is progressing so sophisticatedly without human interventions, the rest of our life, of which nature is excluded, should also be progressing in its parallel. Things just do not seem right if we refute nature as a part of our life, because our continuation of life depends on it; and when nature’s beauty is beyond human comprehension, that greatness should also be translating to our daily life. And that statement very much implies that, our current life must be more than what we are doing! Because nature has shown us that there is absolute peace that does not involve inaction and vegetation! So, with reference to our beloved nature, is there all our life is? Are endlessly striving and blindly modifying the only end goals of our life?
We seem to be progressing according to what others have expected of us, even if for a moment we feel capable of deciding for ourselves, our decision is inevitably influenced by collectively filtered opinions, and when we think that we should do this and that after thorough evaluation, that evaluation, in this context, is too coming from the result of unconscious comparison with other people.
Sometimes I am confused with the current trend of the world, where we are endlessly chasing what we think is best for us, what is even more confusing is that we do it on the deep conviction that we will indeed be better in the future. However, the current facts tell the whole story, the longing of having a better future without even knowing what is “better” just proves to be delusional. We are still in the state of constant anxiety, depression, and fear. If they are necessary in the path of becoming better, an essential question arises (which most people tend to ignore), which is whether the state of being better is better in the sense the word literally implies? Or is it just a form of modification of ourselves that just so happens to be applauded by society?
I do not know what the fuss is all about in this game of becoming better, our environment is filled with hints that inform our incapability of doing the things we want. Nay, we do not want what we want because we do not know what we want. As a last resort, we want the things people want us to want. The fact is so naked and brutal to the extent that we feel the need to package it into a necessity by which we could be constantly reborn as a flaming phoenix from the ashes. We are so obsessed with becoming better to the point where we do not know what is already better, our inferiority prompts us to look for things that could transform us into someone who will, in our imagination, be greatly admired by the crowd, and sometimes we may actively argue that we do this for ourselves; but this too does not seem convincing because when we need to be approved by ourselves, the fact that we never ask who is doing the approval and who is being approved only signifies that we are still confused as to who we really are. This urge of wanting to be better is necessarily short-lived because it does not bring along peace and is built without a solid foundation, it brings only the constant need to become someone we are not, which is, in my opinion, the source of our unhappiness.
We are so trapped in this man-made game that demands losers to never awaken, and the society we live in right now has been molding our character without our conscious consent, the result is remarkable, because what we have been doing has contributed to the instability of society, and when the problem needs a desperate solution, we, as the problem creators, feel the responsibility to solve the problem. Which is again, so ridiculously ironic.
We have become so smart to the extent that avoidance of who we are is no longer done in a socially unaccepted way, since the current society is nothing but the promoter of cultivated virtues, whose purpose are only to impress and giving oneself a label that allows him to stand upright, we have succumb to that, it seems that what we are striving for is only to make ourselves look good on the outside, on the other hand, how we feel on the inside has never a say on how we progress, we progress just for the sake of the society, but is never for our own transcendence, for me personally, this is the ultimate predicament that we will always find ourselves in.